..

Im mad.
Im so mad.
Im mad becuse.
This is so wrong.
I cant believe...
that every tear i ever cried.
Is becuse of you, I just want you to notice me.
But i dont want you to talk to me,Like you talk to someone else.
normal...only normal...
Treat my like a idiot.
i dont care.
However.
I will never forget,
All the friendship and Happyness...tears, and laughter we shared.
Nobody could ever Understand what we had.
And why i choosed to have just you as my friend.
My BESTFRIEND.
All the memories, and now i just feel like...you are leaving me,
becuse you found a Girlfriend.
and you "Love" Her you say.
I dont want you to leave me.
We havent even talked for days...
no texting..Chatting...talking on phone...
Like we used to.
We talked for hours, about all the random things in life.
I miss that.
I really miss that.
But it's okay..
wait...
Its NOT okay.
IM not okay.
And i know your not okay.
So someday.
Please just Look in my eyes, and tell my EXAKLY whats wrong.
Whats going on?
Is this for real?
Are you leaving Your Bestfriend ,
i Been there for you. always.
And i couldnt live without you.
And i know you know that.
You dont ...like treat my like your other bestfriends...
You dont text me hearts, Why?
Im not good enought for your hearts?
I dont think so.
Im the ONLY one that didnt leave you when things were wrong.
Im the ONLY one that havent told ANYONE about ANYTHING you EVER said.
im not special you say.
Im just one of your bestfriends...
Im not the best one.
Im not the girl you want me to be.
I dont want you to know so mutch about me..
I know you couldnt handle that..
Its not good.
Someday, maybe, when i trust you, i can tell you everything.
But its not gonna be a happy hour for you.
Im sorry.
Im just a failed girl.
Im sorry for being there for you.
Cause when i dont feel good, when im sad.
All you do is to say, Whats wrong?
And all i can think in my head is,
All i ever wanted was a hug for all the things i done for you.
but you cant see it.
and i wont tell it...
you just have to figure it out yourself...
~Linda kemii~